Let it go

Almost every single time, I like to start my sentence with " Time went so fast" and every time I do that makes me wonder why am I wasting my time now? For all those hours I spurge on romance, I could be earning an extra degree, learning a new skill. But the indispensable fact is I want to spend the time with him, I like him. The conflicts of the need to achieve my goals, and the want of my desires to be with him. Whether which worth more, I left myself in this debatable situation.

Funny

It's at the end of the semester, it is raining outside, and that sounds depressing in a way.
I found something new about myself, that I didnt realize before...

- I get aggitated easily, ( when i am studying at the libaray,.. if people around me are talking, it gets me very very very disturbed..) but i like my own type of " noise" , music...
- I can't stay up pass 2 a.m ( i remember last time i stay up untill 4 a.m,,.. the next day,, i slept untill 3 p.m...and it doesn't feel good.)
- In relationships, however.. It's a big hit this semester.. it's quit funny indeed.. what I like the most part is not when we were going out, but the time we were friends. Sometimes, friends are better choices. I mean most of the times... Also, even we were still "friends" now, the "friendship" sounds so superfacial.
- Finals, what you need: sleeping bags, instant food, vitamins, energy drinks, yoga mat, alot of water, ...... the most important, a study room.. isn't exciting , i just found another way to use sleeping bags.
- Food, the same the same the same...
- Friends? this guy, ok , We been saying " hi " to each other the whole semester.. and just last week, i asked him what is his last name.. wow..
- read before you go to lectures.. and drink coffee, especially the second one!!!!
- studing while excersing,
- natural sleeping pills - read read read..
- the closet really doesn't fit.. bring your own shelves.
- Don't stay in school on holiday breaks.. last time.. I nearly went starving.. Really Starving.. feels like you are in a desert..
- Planner, very important.

New Standard..

-.- it's almost a new year.. ( 2 month) ..and before christmas, i am gonna make a change on myself.. Here are the things i should be improving on .::
1. Focusing ( i found myself having hard time focusing more than 30 mins)
* i will take 5 mins break every 40 minets of studing..
2. Relationships ( ---- )
* there is a point of your life when you realize, who matters, who never did, who won't anymore.... & who always will. There is a reason why they didn't make it to your future.
3. Identity ( I should be more accepting of myself the way i am, )
* Worrying and complaining are just looking for stress, just let it be, SO?
4. Dance ( )
* passion + Practice.
5. Attitude( I know there are the bad days and the reallly bad days, )
* when i feel sad, I am gonna listen to hyper songs and work out and talk to friends.. or read a book
6. Year ( just to make it Friday)
* a new start.


<3

Nope ~

I am so over him now.. Like I don't feel anything anymore.. He is just a normal person..
" there is bigger fish in the bigger sea. "
but still I want to be friends with him.. too bad we never talk .

Perfect Song.

today.

I actually enjoy today's weather, I am not afraid of cold that much now.. How wonderful. Everything went good. I went to the math test, which i hope i did well on it. ... I got my regitration number too.
I learned alot from my health class, including spiritual health and mental health. I think right now, i need to be along and reflex my own self quietly. I do not know myself too well. along side of my confusion of life.. I saw michael at the library, He sit beside of me the whole time, and we didn't talk even a single word, literately. it's quiet odd.
well. i am tired.